Love/Hate

Reciprocation

Dear Me, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING? I know you deserve better DON'T YOU? Why are you wasting time with someone who clearly has ulterior motives? If he really loved you would he treat you like that? I mean come on life has become a beautiful shade of grey thicker than weed smoke causing you to pray for a peaceful death. Now suicide is out of the question but if life is just at a point where it feels unlivable and you pray that you've been forgiven for all the bad shit you've done so just in case tomorrow is your lucky day. You've cried more in the last few months than you've done in a while and to my knowledge you should be happy. Regret shouldnt even be around....but it is. Regret in a great big box wrapped in a bunch of I told you so's and why didn't you listen. Because you thought you were going for the gold huh? sike your mind honey! were you on shrooms when you agreed to that bright idea? Listen I love you more than you know and I dont want you to get hurt anymore. I just want you to be happy. I know how bad you wanted a family and all but if death before that sounds like a better idea maybe you should let it go.