Love/Hate

I never wrote you one of these but now I need to explain something to you. Remember when I said I can't talk to you right now? That is still the case. We can't be friends. I don't care how many mutual friends we have. I don't want to hang out with you at the El bar when you are there with your boyfriend, someone who you ruined my friendship with among many other things I enjoy such as said bar. When I look at you and hear you speak I don't think about how much I still need you in my arms and how much I want to call you and talk all night and laugh together and make you things and go on adventures and make love at night and all those things that used to happen. I know you don't give a shit about that but I will never think anything differently about you as I have already told you and now I have a girlfriend who is amazing and I love to be with and I can not be thinking about these things. In fact everything in my life is great except for you which is why I don't want to think about you at all. I don't know, prove me wrong. I really do wish I could talk to you but it just doesn't make sense and this is the only way I can say this to you. Please leave me alone. And I want my polariod.